I have never set out wanting to be a leader of any sorts. I have always wanted to stay in the hole of my comfort. I just wanted to do what I love and lead a happy life. To love, to be kind, to give, to bless, to be silly. That’s all my heart and passion goes to. But it’s really tough.
Need a big perspective change. Probably, a cleansed lenses to see life in its beauty once again.
To stay and wait
“Lord, remind me how brief my time on earth will be. Remind me that my days are numbered—how fleeting my life is.You have made my life no longer than the width of my hand. My entire lifetime is just a moment to you; at best, each of us is but a breath.” - Psalm 39:4-5
I pray with all my heart that Lord, help me never to falter in my commitment to You. Teach me to embrace simplicity and to be a faithful steward to the little things that You have put in my hands. Let my heart be ever true to You. You are my heart desire. Even if one day i have nothing to my name, Lord let it be that my faith will not fail.
I will stay should the world by me folds.
Heart on Your heart and my eyes on You.
I am not…
I am not measured by my achievements.
I am not measured by how much I serve.
I am not measured by how many people I’m nice to.
I am not measured by my emotions.
I am not defined by my circumstances
I am not defined by people.
I am not……really.
God, renew my heart.
Keep my heart from distractions and disappointments.
Today’s time of prayer brought me back to the start. Recently i have been so half-hearted in the things that i do, my mind’s everywhere. Life was as usual and typical.
But when Knik shared his heart and Darryl prayed for us, my heart was stirred and ministered. I felt that i need to refocus on my priorities and there are a lot of thoughts on my mind that i can’t seem to express in words now.
You are my Lord of all. I will never exchange Your presence for anything else.
Warmth in His embrace.
Felt so ministered by the presence of God during department prayer meeting this morning. Been so long since my tears came flowing down like a tap and so did everyone else in the room.
Love what Sheryl shared. The pain must go but let the brokenness remain. Every pain is to keep us broken before God but we are not to constantly dwell in the things of the past. Grief is a scary emotion. On a personal note to myself that i have to let go on the disappointments and grief of the past, to trust and believe in people, especially in opening up my thoughts.
So thankful for the word that Darryl has spoken over me. I will go on a new adventure with You. A new beginning, a new chapter. All is not lost.
"Knowing how to be solitary is central to the art of loving. When we can be alone, we can be with others without using them as an escape."
Bell Hooks (via mishproductions)
Your mercy remains.
Had a lot of self doubt today. I’m afraid I can’t meet the expectations.
Lord, Your grace is enough.
"The way I define happiness is being the creator of your experience, choosing to take pleasure in what you have, right now, regardless of the circumstances, while being the best you that you can be."
Leo Babauta (via thresca)
"Lord, use me to serve my generation."
A good friday reminder.
"I will not leave you orphaned. I’m coming back. In just a little while the world will no longer see me, but you’re going to see me because I am alive and you’re about to come alive. At that moment you will know absolutely that I’m in my Father, and you’re in me, and I’m in you." John 14:18-20 (MSG)
“Turn back, fickle Israel. I’m not just hanging back to punish you. I’m committed in love to you. My anger doesn’t see the nonstop." - Jeremiah 3:12
What is man that You are mindful of him, that even when they are fickle and faithless, You remained faithful in Your love.
Lord, change me.
For the year 2013.
In a few more hours, 2012 is gonna bid us goodbye. I just thought it would be nice to pen down the happenings of the year to keep myself reminded of the goodness of God. This year has been rather special. I have finally graduated from Republic Polytechnic, but more than that, I am even more proud to say, I am now a graduate from School of Theology. The seven months has been life-changing. I have seen how evidently God has moved in my life and of course, not forgetting the everyday experience at Jurong West.
After graduation, I have also successfully gotten my certificate in basic practical counseling after 3 months. If I could sum up the year in a phrase, it would definitely be “A year of first-times.” I went for my first mission trip, preach my first sermon in cell group, went for my first dive, had my first trekking experience at Bukit Timah and etc. Also, I have landed myself in my DREAM job. I have been extremely blessed.
Looking forward to the year 2013, I personally want to look beyond all these. I want to lead a more disciplined, happy and contended life :)